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Keeping it real for those out of state, mind or head. What is really Detroit Tiger Stadium.

On Wednesday I walked down stairs into the basement of my condo here in the mid-west. I found something I lost. It was sort of déjà vous.

Roughly French for "again you", deja vous is the experience of thinking that one has been oneself before, perhaps in a past life, or in this same one, but several days ago. Extremely self-aware people are often unable to avoid experiencing deja vous throughout every minute of their waking lives. (and fuck, I know how that feels.)

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Self aware, something my ex-girlfriend is not. The woman below however is not the ex-girlfriend and is self aware...and she is super cute.

What I found was a weird looking bike with curly handlebars. The name read Trek, the model Madone. It is the flagship of road bikes. It is handmade in Waterloo, WI, USA....and there was a twin, apparently I have two of them, an old one (pre-2008), and a new one (post-2008).

I love to ride it. As a matter of fact I swap them every other day now, mountain bike, road bike, mountain bike, road bike. While my house is empty with no significant other, I have found another love, a lost love and as a matter of fact I have 8 of them. They call hang heel to tow from the rafters. They never sleep in, they never leave dirty dishes, they toil from sun up to sun down, they communicate what they are feeling, and they rarely let me down. They are my bikes. They read Trek. They read Fisher. Peroid.

in the last 30 days or there about (April 2009).

I got a call driving on 248 just outside of Allentown, PA I got a call from a girl who saw my ad to rent a room, she said, “Hi, I want to rent a room from you but I Googled you name and I think I might like you and don’t think it would be a good idea to rent the room.” A man on ‘local loop’ (loosely interconnected trail system) in Ann Arbor upon approaching a decent on our bikes states, “You look faster than me, you go first.” What gave it away, I thought? Was it the fact that we I started the climb you were almost to the top and I caught you. I bought headphones that fall out of my ears all the time. I went to ATX (Austin, TX for 12 days). I woke up on my return to a dream of her where she sent me a letter with a SASE, I sent myself to her in ATX (Austin, TX). I fell in love with Bat For Lashes. I found love within. I kissed like I have never kissed before. I sold a bike. I tried to rent and extra room. I shared my room. I saw my friends from Wisconsin that are really from Michigan. We had a sleep over. I slept over. I celebrated my Grandma’s 85 year. I spoke to my friend in China. I got some new business for my business. I fell and broke my ribs…again. I spoke to my ex…for a minute. I visited an ex. I got a shipment from Trek Bikes with my name on it. And Chrysler filed for bankruptcy. I watched Garden State. And I kissed more, like I had never kissed before. So there’s that.


The words.

We walked arm in arm
But I didn't feel his touch
A desire I'd first tried to hide,
That tingling inside was gone
And when he asked me:
'do you still love me?'
I had to look away
I didn't want to tell him
That my heart grows colder with each day

When you love someone
But the thrill is gone
And your kisses at night
Are replaced with tears
And when your dreams are on
A train to train wreck town
Then I ask you now, what's a girl to do?

He said he'd take me away
That we'd work things out
And I didn't want to tell him
But it was then I had to say
Over the times we've shared
It's all blackened out
And my bat lightning heart
Wants to fly away

When you love someone
But the thrill is gone
And your kisses at night
Are replaced with tears
And when your dreams are on
A train to train wreck town
Then I ask you now, what's a girl to do?

What's a girl to do?
What's a girl to do?
What's a girl to do?